Nearly 20 years after Dennis Rader was sent to prison, his daughter Kerri Rawson found the strength to confront him face-to-face.
In 2023, the mother of two was enlisted by investigators to determine whether the man who once terrorized Wichita, Kansas, and taunted police during a 17-year murder spree might be linked to other unsolved killings. Facing the father who called himself BTK — short for "bind, torture, kill" — would mark the final break in a relationship already shattered by his crimes.
Rawson, 46, who has spoken out about the serial killer over the years, is the subject of a new Netflix documentary, "My Father, the BTK Killer." It explores how the Michigan resident is struggling to reconcile the loving father she once knew with the monster exposed by police.
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"It was really hard for Kerri to confront her father," director Skye Borgman told Fox News Digital. "She talks about coming out of that prison. She was shaking after she talked to him about things that she had kept bottled up for a long time. And she was also surprised at her own feelings when talking to him.
"There were moments where she talks about seeing him switch between these two men, between her dad and BTK. One moment she felt like he was her dad, and then the next moment he shifted when she would ask him a question he didn’t like. He would switch to BTK."
"Having the knowledge that she knows now about his crimes, she was able to see that more," Borgman shared. "It was incredibly hard for her. But at the same time, I think it gave her an ending to a chapter. She’s OK with not seeing him again. She’s OK with not talking to him again. Whereas before, there was a question mark there — do I want to see him? And now, the question is answered."
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Rawson and two other investigators were hoping to see if Rader, now 80, could offer information about cold cases for the Osage County Sheriff’s Office.
"If my father has committed more murders, then we really need to get to the bottom of the truth, and we need to get to it before my father passes away," Rawson said during filming.
In the documentary, Rawson questioned whether she may have been sexually abused by Rader as a child. She had read one of his notebooks from the 1980s, where he wrote about a bondage game in a bathtub. It included her name.
Investigators warned her not to ask Rader about her suspicions, fearing he would shut down and refuse to answer questions.
"He's frail, he's in a wheelchair, and he was literally crying, so happy to see me — like, over the moon to see his kid," Rawson recalled in the film.
When Rawson asked him about the cold cases during their three-hour conversation, he told her, "What are you talking about? Can't we just reminisce? Can't we just have a father-daughter — can't we just have memories?"
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Then, he "turned on a dime," said Rawson. When she asked him about his journal entry, Rawson said he told her, "That was just a fantasy. I never touched the family. You’re just making stuff up about me to be famous."
Rawson described unleashing "a blast of 45 years of anger" at Rader as she went "completely off script."
"He was literally gaslighting me, manipulating me, lying to me, five feet from me," she said. "It was like I wasn’t talking to my dad. It was like I was talking to a subhuman. What everybody talks about — him being a psychopath and a narcissist and not wanting to be around him — I had still been able to find humanity in him. And then, I wasn’t able to."
Borgman told Fox News Digital that the experience left Rawson so shaken that she never wants to see or speak to Rader again.
"I think Kerri thinks about her dad as two different men," Borgman explained.
"She talked about him being two different men. In her own words, she said she had a good childhood. They explored, they went places, they camped together, they had great family vacations. So those memories of her father, I think, she was able to hang onto them because she was able to separate that man from BTK. But as far as I know, they’re no longer speaking. She got to the point where she knew she needed to separate herself from him to continue on her healing journey."
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"They’re not speaking anymore," Borgman shared. "I think a lot of that communication was her trying to get information out of him. She realized that probably was not going to happen."
Rader played a cat and mouse game with investigators and reporters for decades before he was arrested in 2005, The Associated Press reported. The former church leader and animal control officer confessed to murdering 10 people between 1974 and 1991 in and around Wichita. He is now serving one life term for each of the 10 people he was convicted of killing.
Loved ones of the victims declined to participate in the documentary. Borgman said she made sure her film featured their voices prominently.
"We found the reasons for them not wanting to participate are very different," said Borgman. "They’ve been reached out so many times, especially over the last 20 years. But the film shows the ripple effects of a crime like this. I hope the victims’ families feel represented. It was always our intention to make them equal participants in this story."
Borgman said that when looking back, Rawson wondered if her father’s sudden bursts of anger were glimpses into his double life. Rawson is aware she may never know the truth. Throughout the film, Rawson stressed that she and her family had no idea about her father’s crimes and were blindsided when it came to light.
"When she was a little girl, Dennis would have these outbursts," said Borgman. "She just thought, ‘Well, that’s my dad. He can get angry from time to time. He had a bad day at work, or the dishes weren’t cleaned when he came home.’ I think in looking back, she has more perspective about the surrounding circumstances that may have gotten him to be that way."
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"It may be similar to how Kerri views her father as two different men," said Borgman. "I think he was able to separate himself and come up with these lies where he had been able to sneak away. I think it provided something in him that he was able to hide when he came back home. And look, I’m not a psychologist. I can’t diagnose him, but I do think he got something out of this — that it provided something that he wanted and needed. And once he was able to get that, he was able to return to his role as a family man, a father figure."
Today, Rawson is an advocate and mentor for those who have discovered that their relative is a violent offender. Borgman said the experience has been "a double-edged sword" for Rawson, who wants to be recognized for more than just being Rader’s daughter.
"The investigation with Osage County hasn’t really produced any evidence," said Borgman. "[But] it’s required Kerri to dive into her father’s crimes. I think what’s healthier for her is when she’s working with other families and bringing perspective on what it’s like to be the daughter of a serial killer. She can speak to what a family may be going through and how hard that is, how the backlash and violence thrown at the family is a real thing."
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In the film, Rawson shared that since speaking out, she’s estranged from her mother and brother. Still, she remains hopeful about her future.
"I think that’s something she feels incredibly dedicated to doing — helping other families in similar circumstances," said Borgman. "If she can ease somebody else’s pain, she’s going to do that, even if it causes her pain. And I think it’s largely because she wants to do something good just to take away a little bit of the bad her father did."
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